Last night sometime around 2 am sleep got me in little bits: but my daughter’s words tossed me on pillow. “Hope can be a painful thing,” she said, her face melting with the things I was telling her….
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…how I want my brother in law back from the valley of death (not Covid) : how bad my sis Thel needs a miracle, how impossible it seems. Sometime now they will know whether he can really make it back. And how. Should I say all this in a Post at all; here it’s become an altar, an altar of healing, prayer for us all in steeping places: the best of us may face the worst. Dearest God please bring my brother back even for a bit, there were many wishes he had, many we all had, have.…
Yes I know the pain of hope, how it can wrench heart. And we’ve seen the fulfillment of many things these past years.
Don’t you too wonder where the spirit of us goes when we rest in particular state in hospital bed? That tunnel of life, the Light at the end of breath….
Yesterday and now this reading: “..the word of God is alive and full of power( active, operative,energizing,effective), it is sharper than any two edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life(soul) and the immortal spirit, and of joints and marrow….” (Heb 4: 12, Amp.Bible)
What d’you say in a day like this…
we wait, pray; grief and hope hold each other. It’s raining outside. Is that a sign? My brother you are with God right now I know, just wish you’d come back for a bit and tell us all of it all. Love you forever.
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Just got word, you’ve gone ahead
Innerdialects 
A heartfelt plea with resonates with me.
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I am so sorry that you are going through this. May God give you leave as you lean on Him.
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I got you. Well, somethings must be gone thru. It’s my sis and family that needs the most prayers. They’re all so brave and strong. Thankyou for your kind wishes.
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— stupid autocorrect…May God give you peace as you lean on Him.
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Writers always know more than anyone else how inadequate words can be–they just are. Maybe the real hope is in the silence where ultimately we all reside.
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Yes, in the silence so much is heard.
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God remains faithful. be strong
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I weep for your loss. I pray the Holy Spirit can wrap you all in His loving embrace. You are sad for your loss but must remain hopeful for heaven and a final reuniting of all souls!
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My deepest sympathies to you and your sister. I pray the Lord comforts you both.
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My sympathies to you and your family. Stay strong and come out stronger.
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Thankyou Anish. Yes, stronger is a great word.
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I hold all of you in my heart.
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I know this edge. Too well. It’s hard. Jesus is there too. He grieves with those behind and welcomes home those ahead.
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Gary Fultz, so good to be understood. Hows your family… no, your daughter. The last I heard she was fine, right? God hold you all as you heal. Thankyou yes Jesus hurts with us, oh hallel for heaven. I can’t wait!š
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Thankyou so much. God bless
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Our Daughter is doing well for now. Small seizures only for now. It’s been a year losing my wife’s mom and my dad and almost daughter. Time helps hide the scars in public. Jesus comforts and salves the depths of our soul.
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I am sorry for your loss. I use this space to talk about our deceased daughter. Thank you for sharing.
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All things work together for good to them that Love and trust in God.
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Sure does. Thankyou for kind words. š
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